Post the woes of your life, I will do my best to make this safe (No Jackhole comments please)

Well, I mean it's nothing super tragic, or long term but it still has an affect. and nothing can replace a loved one. cherish the memories you have with your dog I cant say this because it never told me for well many obvious reasons, but im sure it would have wanted that.

Nnn... I don't know if I'm going to regret this or not. Buuut I guess I'll post.

Well, I can't really say I ever had a good life. My mom died shortly after childbirth due to several complications. I never really learned what I was supposed to. I was stuck with my father. OCCASIONALLY my really older brother would come and visit, which I loved. I suppose life wasn't terrible until I was about 10. My father had recently broken up with some girl he was dating. He was always drunk and it was pretty terrifying. He eventually started to rape me and make me do all sorts of awful things.. I was a wreck. Tried killing myself too many times. But then my brother moved in with us and it was the best moment of my life. At that point I was 14 I think. My brother got married and I got my first boyfriend. I enjoyed it. Things started looking up and we actually managed a relationship for 2 years. Then when I wanted to go to homecoming with him, he said he couldn't. I was a little upset but that wasn't the killer. One of my friends who did go saw him there with another girl and then our relationship ended. That year for christmas I got a dog. He's a husky and the second best thing that ever happened to me. Nothing has really happened since then. i guess my main problem now is that I keep everything bottled up inside me. Annnd that's me.

I tend to keep everything bottled up inside too, people keep telling me its unhealthy but I'm almost certain that if i let it all out, loads of people will hate me. I also have huge issues with my parents, they've mentally abused me for years, expecting far more from me then I'm capable of, primarily in school. I have very few friends, most of whom think I need to get laid, even though I've sworn to be celibate. Also the thing about my dog worries me because when my grandfather died, I felt nothing, now my dog dies & I can't seem to get over that. I liked my grandfather more than my dog. I have tried to run away from home more times than I care to remember. I have also tried to kill myself a few times. Twice I've nearly jumped off a bridge, and I've tried cutting my wrists as well (which is a pain in the ass cuz you really gotta make the cuts deep!).

For some reason none of the stories have shocked me, because I have heard them before. Basically the best thing to remember is that this happens to other people too, but they make it through like for example we all made it through and we still have our complications. Krin, and StarFox, I'm not going to say "I'm sorry to hear that" Because that pisses me off... It's kinda like rubbing it in. I mean I don't care if the person knows me well but yeah.. anyway...

Starfox, You gotta remember its your life to live. I'm not living my life so it probably doesn't mean much from me seeing as you at least have a life. Be greatful for what you have try to tell your parents that your having trouble in school, try after school stuff. and I wouldn't see those "friends" as friends but as buddies, what kind of friend cant understand a friends lifestyle.

Krin, Well I mean your fine now right? Be grateful for that. Try just saying to your self that you forgive you father sounds stupid.. but it works... or you can always report him. But It's not my place to be giving solid advice these are all my opinions. But I assume your over it?

I actually just got dumped like 5 minutes ago.. but I don't feel anything. I wasn't dating her long though thats probably why... I never really felt anything for her to be honest... I don't know why I let it go on.

My friends are idiots in general, i keep em friends because they're funny at times. The worst part of my life is my parents. They have put me through hell my entire life. My father actually used to hit me, but not often and not anymore. The worst thing they used to do was lock me in a room and leave me there until i finished ALL of my homework including projects that weren't due for some time. They wouldn't let me out of that damn office for anything. My dad used to come in and sit there to make sure i was on task, and he'd yell at me & stuff if I wasn't. My mom was and still is oblivious to most of this, however she has been fighting with my dad recently. Neither of them trust me because I 1. like online games 2. Swore abstinence and 3. Don't get straight A's. Being locked in a room for an entire day with your mildly-abusive-already-angry father will drive you to the brink of insanity.

Well, I mean it probably feels better to talk about it, try talking to them... (i edited my post before this big time read that) but I know it would..
I can't even sit still for 3 minutes..

oooohhh no, I cannot talk to them. They'd probably get even more mad at me. currently my dad thinks he's completely cut off my internet, I've figured out how to hack his proxy settings, but he doesnt know that, and i'd prefer it'd stay that way. Besides, i just gotta survive 1 more semester of school then i'm free

Ah, Well good luck to you... I'm sure it will all work out.. And I'm not just saying that!

Yeah I'm sure it will, I've basically secured my future already, i'm going into the Tech Theater business after high school. My current tech teacher can also get me college recommendations, and my parents being obsessed with my education on a dangerous level have agreed to help pay for college. But I'm still not gonna tell em sh!t about how I really feel about them.

Lol I guess.. that'll work.. just suck it up one way to look at it but " Courage is the magic that turns dreams into reality" :3

Lessee, My stepdad is a complete dickwad. Like the stuff in the cinderella movies. My dad used to take marijuana all the goddamn time and I was witness to him almost beat a guy to death because he punched my dad in the nose for no reason. He's a really good guy though and I really love him. But two days ago he was bitten in the throat by a redback spider and has been in hospital in critical condition. I have a bad case of unrequited love, in which I actually burst into tears in class just thinking about it (Boy was that embarassing) But, Could be worse

My parents think I'm stoned all the time because I have a weird voice and think about things other people don't think about even though I told them I'm not.
@Starfox - If my dad stayed in my room like that, I would go crazy. -.-

Ryu, I got nothing. >_>; I really can't think of a reply

Ryuketsu wrote:Lessee, My stepdad is a complete dickwad. Like the stuff in the cinderella movies. My dad used to take marijuana all the goddamn time and I was witness to him almost beat a guy to death because he punched my dad in the nose for no reason. He's a really good guy though and I really love him. But two days ago he was bitten in the throat by a redback spider and has been in hospital in critical condition. I have a bad case of unrequited love, in which I actually burst into tears in class just thinking about it (Boy was that embarassing) But, Could be worse

Unrequited love sucks. WHO AGREES WITH ME?

Believe it or not, I'm not familiar with that term

ChaoticFury wrote:Believe it or not, I'm not familiar with that term

God damn you... T_T...

TaChiKaZe wrote:My parents think I'm stoned all the time because I have a weird voice and think about things other people don't think about even though I told them I'm not.
@Starfox - If my dad stayed in my room like that, I would go crazy. -.-

Everyone always, thinks I'm stoned. I have a really deep and relaxed voice, and my eyes always look glazed, and my pupils are dilated a lot, but, I've never even been high.

Chaotic, I have also been anal raped. I don't care if people make fun of me. I'm not gay and I never will be. It's not my fault that people get drunk, and are sick freaks.

My mom abused me from the age of 2-11. She both physically and mentally abused me. She started choking me on night, for no reason, she then dragged me into the hallway and started kicking me. She thinks that if I don't do what she says perfectly than its absolutely horrible. She also hates me because I'm not gay. She is, and she wants me to be like her.

My step-mom hates me. I can't do anything without getting in trouble, she hasn't even bought me clothes for two years. I had to get my own job and buy my own things.

I recently met some friends who are Christians and they are the nicest people you will ever meet. They are also rich and they help me when I need it. I love to go over there, but they live 3 hours away. I feel more at home there than in my own house. The only family member that I have that loves me is my dad, and he has gotten ruder, and meaner from being around my step-mom.

My life sucks but I never think about killing myself. I just think about what it will be like when I can leave.

Do you still want this post deleted?

Wow Renton, We got a lot in common (according to this thread) and I want the 2nd post should be by mask gone, Was this your first time talking about this? and yeah... I'm spoiled now, I had a bad past... but right now its great... but going nowhere >_>; just remember there is always a hope.

Wow everyone's getting raped (0_0)

More about me, I'm the oldest of 3 children and the least favorite. My brother is constantly acting like an immature asshole, if he read this forum he would call you guys gay without second thought, he also constantly accuses me of being gay. My brother is the favorite in my Dad's eyes, simply because he follows in my dad's footsteps. He has worse grades than me but my dad has never done to him what was done to me. My little sister, the youngest, is a complete brat. She gets away with freakin anything and never gets in trouble for it, cuz she's "mommy's little girl".

Weird, this is the first time i've actually really talked about all this, it just seems easier talking to complete strangers

Lol, I work for PPRI, and I'm also a teenager, It's easier to talk to a fellow teen rather then an adult. That's one of the reasons for a sex peer educator like myself. and its even easier here because we don't know each other in real. on top of that in a way you get to learn things about people you would never expect. ALSO 25% of females are raped before they turn 18. There is no actual statistic for males because society would look down on a man getting raped.. so in the "Male"s mind he doesn't want to report it. But I mean I thought I would do something for this forum besides be an ass, and I'm surprised. people here are actually mature enough to be serious like this.

Man you all are truly deep. My life is not bad at all compared to what you all have gone through. I've lived with my mom all my life. My mom and dad divorced when I was two. We had to move into my aunts house because we couldn't afford to live anywhere. I grew up with my 3 cousins and they are like my brothers now. My dad had a troubled life he was into drugs and was in jail more than once, and not like a week jail, more like 1 year sentence. I loved my dad so much and I always wanted to be with him. I love my mom but I think I loved my dad just because he understood me and I never saw much of him. He was in a half-way house ( to you who don't know what that is its somewhere people live as a probation) and he was doing good with no drugs or anything. Then out of nowhere he overdosed on cocaine and died 3 years ago. Caught me by a huge surprise. I remember on the morning he died I woke up and my mom was talking to my aunt on my dads side and somehow I knew that they were talking about my dad passing away. It was my first year of high school and he always wanted me to play football. I told him I was going to try out and he assumed that I was going to play. So I joined the team and 2 weeks later he passed away. I also remember that my first freshmen game he was going to show up but he never did because he couldn't drive down. It really just made me want to quit but then I thought of my dad and how proud of me he would be so I stuck to it. Turns out I wasn't too bad at it and next year will my my 4th year of playing football. But even so compared to everyone else I feel like my life is not worth mentioning.

Grassie, That was a nice constructive post. and the football thing is very touching. I know I wouldn't have done that... But thats still kinda messed, the relationship with your father must have been confusing when you were young... But I'm sure he would be proud of you.

Well...when i was 5 my mom left me....but it was because of my dad he abused her and me alot...but i still would like to know why she didnt take >.<...my dad will get drunk all the time and go to jail for stealing and other stuff. He will get really great jobs and then f**k it up and steal hundreds of dollars from them. When i was about 12 me and my dad were homeless and we lived in shelters and sometimes in other places. My dad expects to much from me. He was a fuck up his whole life, dropped out of school but he was a super awsume person in school everyone loved him. He was an amazing football player in high school, and he trys to push me to be one too..i like football i just dont want to play. He wants me to be like him but i dont wont to be. Im alot like my mom(the parts i remember) im really smart because of her and soo i can get by school with ease. About a year ago i got a wii for chirstmas and then...a week later my dad store it for more beer and drugs(he started doing drugs when my aunt came back. She sells and does them too so hes started doing it.)I cant tell him what i think about all this or he will hit me or push me down and tell me to mind my business. Im much stronger than him...but i have this uncontrollable fear of him. Im like Krin i keep everything bottled up inside...i have so much...anger and frustration i need to get out but cant. The only person i can talk to is my girlfriend. She helps me with so much and i feel sry for her to have to listen to me 24/7 but she says she likes it. Her life is kinda bad...but i wont tell it >.<

In a few months ill be leaving to go live with my girlfriend. I havnt told my dad about this. its just gonna be his lil surprise when Im gone. She moved away and that devastated me. She had to move because of her mom. She now lives in Vancouver, BC and its so far away. She moved there because her mom had family there. I cant stand being apart from her. Its like half of me went with her.

Another thing i cant stand is how my Grandma lets my cousin get away with anything. Shes failed soo many classes and can do just about anything she wants...if i fail one class i cant do ANYTHING...shes on house arrest now. Shes not supposed to be on the phone or the computer but yet again my grandma lets her....i lived with my grandma for pretty much my whole life...my dad could never keep a job so we could never get a place. So my cousin also lives with her because her mom is a f**k up too(my drug dealing aunt). My cousin would get anything she wants.

but ill shut up now..thats a lil to much

You probably have a whole big plan, how do you plan to get there though O.o and is it ok with her family... I assume it is but I mean thats pretty fucked up, If that person was my"Step-Dad" I would have probably hit him by now.. But I would never hit someone who gave birth to me... being alive is better then not being alive no matter how bad because you always have a chance to change how your life is.